last post before i go to sleep...

there have been many things that happened in my life. although it is not really enough, i can say that i have learned a whole lot whenever i look back at them. but there are those things that you thought that you have learned through them yet you find yourself in the same situation again, doing the same mistakes and hurting thinking how you are currently making a fool of yourself.

sometimes, we tend to misunderstand the actions of others. there are those times that we over-analyze and we become paranoid. there are those times wherein we think that an action of another is something that is not true especially towards us. and there are those times wherein we misinterpret actions of others as a sign of something special in our lives.

this week, there are things that happened that i thought it will not happen anymore. and as i type this blog post, i dont think that it will happen again. but that worry is overshadowed by the fun and happiness that i experienced on that day. i cant seem to let go of the happy moments together with them.

a simple chat over dinner, some sad sharings and a whole lot of laughing made it very worthwhile. and even after we parted ways, i texted and im-ed some of them. i miss them, i miss that group. i once said to one "siguro kung ka-batch nyo ako, sa grupo nila ako kasama..." and i still believe that that is true, because im having a lot fun when im with them and we share the same interests.

what i liked about that group is that eventhough they look like a couple of happy-go-lucky bunch of fellows, i felt that i was special to them and that they acknowledge me not only as ther former teacher, but also as a friend.

i was touched by one of them, because there was a time when i was told "idol kita sir eh..." when it was said, i thought it was a joke for it was accompanied by a joking smile and laughter but the statement was proven in more ways than one later on. then when we were chatting after our bonding time this week we chatted again...

"hindi mo na ako idol, kasi magaling ka na sa akin ngayon eh. ikaw na dapat ang idol ko."
"hindi sir, sayo ako natuto eh. idol pa rin kita."

"tamang-tama sir, ipagtatanggol kita sa mga nangaaway sayo."

its is very rare for people to say that to me. at isa lang sya sa mga taong nagsasabi sa akin ng ganun ng walang pagaalinlangan. salamat, dahil dyan sumaya ako. lagi mo naman akong pinapasaya eh.

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always be there for me, my valiant crusader.

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isshouni asobo!