one last request...

i know im not that good as a teacher.
i know that im not the favorite of everyone.
i know that not everyone likes me.
im not even sure that everyone that i treat as friend outside of the classroom treats me as friend as well.

but for the last chance, i hope that they listen to me.

all i want is the good for them. and i really think that what they like is not going to bring them goodness. but it seems that they would not listen.

im at a dilemma. i want to respect what they want, and i want them to learn by their own mistakes. but i dont want the other batches to look down at them and maltreat them because of a specific number of persons just like what happened in the past intrams. it hurts me inside when others think ill of them.

i was hoping that this time it would change. but i think that they are again making a bad decision.

mas kilala naman kasi nila yun tao, sabi nila. at siguro kahit anong gawin kong pagrereason out sa kanila, hindi naman ata sila makikinig. kahit na sabihin na nating nakita ko na ung tunay na kulay nung gusto nila. hindi pa rin sila maniniwala. ganyan naman kasi yang mga yan.
basta ako its either of the two ang gusto ko. pero sabi nila, ayaw na nila dun sa isa kasi sawa na sila. kaya dun na lang sila sa 2nd to the most popular.

i love all of them. but sometimes, kailangang maging objective. i love all of them as a person, as a friend. pero minsan, iba sila sa trabaho. aba! eh kung tatanungin kung sino pinakagusto ko as a person, pipiliin ko na ung popular choice. mabait sya sa akin, and i could say na sya ung may pinakamaraming times na nakausap ko out of the three, at nakapag-bonding na rin ako sa kanya. heck! puro kaming dalawa pa nga ata ung most nung nasa friendster photos ko. but sometimes, hindi sya ganun ka-choice-choice pag dating sa mga ganito.

oh well, galit na nga eh. wala na ako magagawa. kasi i cheered kanina for others. nahurt ako nung nafeel ko na galit sya. siguro, hindi naman talga kami naging ganun ka-close. i tried my best to get close to him at one time. pero mukhang hanggang dun na lang un. wala akong magagawa. at saka, i cannot please everybody.

basta, sorry.

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the end begins...

ADN - march 14; wednesday; the fifth...
CC - march 12; monday; the first section i'll say goodbye to... -__-,
DDN - march 13; tuesday; the third...
GSC - march 14; wednesday; the fourth...
SAR - march 12; monday; the second...
SK - march 14; wednesday; the final goodbye...
SDS - march 14;wednesday; the sixth...

... for the last time.... goodbye and thank you....

this time it will be my final heaven...

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isshouni asobo!